Where do I go from here?

If you look at my patreon earnings per page it looks pretty nice right? But if you think about it it’s actually insane.

I can’t update AHS a lot and I’m pretty sure the majority of readers abandon my comic because of it… but despite this, I still got a good number of patrons.

Now imagine how many patrons I’d have if I wasn’t a complete wreck?

This should be motivating as hell right? I could make this my job!!!

In reality it turned out the be the carrot on a stick dangling in front of my face that I will never reach. Hope is cruel.

Next year is the date I wanted to have finished AHS and moved on to the next project, instead I’m not even 1/8th of the way there. And given my ever deteriorating health, I will never get there.

So, I won’t be able to finish AHS and I’ll take all the other ideas I had to my grave? What’s even the point in going on?

Someone suggested writing instead of doing a comic. No fuck that. I’m a visual person and I can’t write to save my life. There’s webcomics I stopped following because they switched to mostly text. It’d be kinda hypocritical for me to do the same. Something like a visual novel mayyybe, but I’d rather make something like a turn based rpg, but who knows how long something like that would take me…

Some suggest working with another artist. I did actually try that once, but it ended in tears. I’m not cut out for working with people honestly. The subject matter of my stuff is another thing, people might work with me now, but they don’t know what the story has in store… And then there’s a matter of payment, If i worked with someone I’d want the art to be on par with mine and of course I’d pay for that. But my financial situation is so dire, I don’t even have money for the last week of each month.

So, if I only have one comic in me (if that), do I really want it to be AHS, a comic I have many regrets about? If so, do I completely remake chapter 1 and some of chapter 2 in order to try and make it work? Or If I’m remaking chapter 1 anyway, change the whole thing to take it in a direction I’m more interested in? Or just make something entirely different? But what’s the point if I don’t finish that either?

Maybe I should make a lewd image patreon for the time being.

I don’t know… these are just the ramblings of someone trying to cling to a life that’s probably over at this point.


Bad News

In case you’re wondering why I’m not posting much, my father died of a heart attack recently and things are not going well.
I don’t really feel like going into it further than that.

My shoulder still hurts. It’s been almost two years now and I’ve lost hope things will ever improve. I’m also dealing with an opportunistic infection right now, due to a weakened immune system, apparently from being depressed / stressed out.

One stress factor actually being my Patreon… More and more I feel like keeping it going is unethical in a way, because I know I won’t be able to ever finish this comic with the way my health is going.

Not sure what I’m going to do.

Anyway… that’s all for now. bye.


Patreon alternatives.

Patreon is probably always going to be my main thing, but the issue with the fee structure changes, which they didn’t go through with mind, may have soured some people on it. And then of course there’s people who want to make one-off donations every now and then. Plus it’s always a good idea to not put all your eggs in one basket.

So for the one-off donations there’s now my Ko-Fi.

And for a Patreon alternative there’s now my Liberapay.

Liberapay is interesting because it’s a nonprofit so they don’t charge additional fees. It’s different from Patreon in that you have a wallet there that you charge and then slowly use up, that is how they reduce transaction fees. Also, no rewards or anything there, which is fine by me since I don’t do rewards right now. If I ever offer real rewards on Patreon, I would keep them behind the paywall only for a limited time anyway.

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Gonna have to pare down the quality of my drawings.

At the pace I’m currently producing comics I will literally be dead before I finish AHS, not to mention other comics I want to make.
That’s why I really have to find ways to draw more efficiently.
I planned to hire someone to help me with inking / coloring, but the Patreon revenue would have to be a lot more for something like that to be feasible and that is not happening with my slow update schedule.

I look at a lot of webcomics to get ideas and I noticed that my eyes kinda slide off of some sketchy comics or comics that are purely lineart. So I’ll be experimenting a bit with the art in the next few pages to avoid this issue while still being faster.
There’s still some hope my health situation improves with physical therapy etc. but I’m not betting on it at this point.

Anyway, just wanted to let everyone know what’s happening.